Hello friends!

I've been debating my aesthetic lately!! As a little kid, I always hoped I'd be one of the cool teens/young adults with a Scene/Emo aesthetic, and from 13-17 I was grunge/alt. 17-19(current age), I've been trying to be a soft girl and just focus on femininity - I have really intense problems with never feeling feminine enough, so I stopped trying with alt because it made me feel too masculine. But I've recently been trying to come to terms with the fact that being feminine isn't one set structure. 

I'm coming to accept that I am who I am, I don't need labels or aesthetics or boxes. BUUUUT I do still want to find an aesthetic that suits me, regardless of femininity!! I was thinking of going scene / emo with a focus on pink (as it's my favourite colour) to make my inner-child happier??

Maybe I'll even get all my retired face/body piercings back XD

I've also been really looking forward to getting a job, because I've come to realise that I want to live on my own for a while. I live with my friends, which isn't bad, but I feel like nobody ever does anything. One of them has a chronic illness so I can understand why he doesn't do much (he tries his best, and does more than the Other Roommate TM), but the other one is just really lazy?? I hate using that word to describe people, but she literally says it herself like "nooo i don't wannaaa i'm soo laaazzyyyy" (the dishes have not been done in weeks girl PLEASE i am bEGGING you)

also I've been considering getting into rollerskating, and possibly trying to get back into writing and gaming?? I've already gotten back into drums and art, so maybe I'm on a winning streak?? I'd really love to have more to do during the day, I feel like I'm so boring!! I've been trying to make new friends and they're like "what do you like to do in your free time?" ermmm I sleep.. n I watch Netflix?? and I hang out with my housemate?? I'm honestly so boring it's awful <//3

I miss 2016 when I was just doing stuff XD

Anyway, hope everybody's okay!! If you have any suggestions on hobbies for me to try, lmk!! :3

~ Max <3