Ignorant Father ₊˚⊹౨ৎ ₊˚⊹

Ok so this is actually quite long so prepare! ^^

(TW, sensitive topics)

I hate how my dad doesn't treat me how he should and the way he is acting is draining me.  For reference, I'm autistic so I don't think/work like how "normal" people do, and he is choosing to ignore that. Like yesterday, I was out in town with my BFF Juno, and I needed a lift home so I call him because I didn't have enough money for an uber, and even if I did, I'd be too scared to get one because social anxiety gets the best of me sometimes. So then, I'm waiting 21 minutes for him to arrive (even tho it's only like a 15 minute drive) and then he pulls over and while I'm walking to the car (at a fast pace may I add) he's shouting at the top of his lungs "RUNNNN!!" and I'm just like calm tf down man it isn't that deep? and then he's in a strop the whole car ride and it's ridiculous, everytime something doesn't take his intrest he goes into a strop and starts getting angry. I might talk to my therapist and tell them I think he needs some sort of emotion management because honestly it's taking a toll on me too. 

Also, all my friends agree with me but it's so obvious that I'm depressed and eh just doesn't care enough to look into it. I bedrot at any chance I get, I sometimes sh but I hide it like anyone would, my room clearly shows how fucked up I am, like I have 9 month old food wrappers under my bed, they could have their own food babies! The way I act shows it all aswell. On wednesday, I got my autism report back with all the information, and it says quite cleary "Katie's mood is mosty flat, Katie SH once, Katie has had suicidal thoughts" and this was all done a while ago while my mum was still alive, which she actually cared about me. I get that people will say "Oh but he's trying!" Trust me, he's tried harder to get me to detransition than caring about my mental health. Just because things don't fit his ideology doesn't mean he can change them. 

He hasn't even bothered to read my autism report yet because he thinks "it's a load of nonsense" and at my school, there was a whole drama because wearing my blazer was giving me gender dysphoria and obviously they have to contact home about it and he was getting angry at the fact they were calling him about it, like your meant to be my guardian, of course you're gonna have responsibilities??  and also about the anger thing, I had a taster day at my new college for next year and when he came to pick me up, he came from the other side of the road that I wasn't on and it's a busy road so I had to wait for the crossing to go green and then he doesn't park anywhere close to me so I have to walk on the opposite side of the pavement fence and he's rolled down the window shouting "COME ONNNN!" like just shut up bro I can't control how busy the roads are or how long the crossing lights take to change. It's so unfair on me because it's making me in a bad mood, and then he always describes me as horrible. 

Anyway yall, that's all I have to say for now!

BYEEE ^3^ 

(also bmf im rlly nice)