I never truly fell in love

I was thinking about my past relationships and my crushes, and... I never felt 'love' in the true sense of the word; that 'love' was pure emotional dependency, something that shouldn't have even become a relationship. I just wanted to feel special to the other person; I wanted to be someone important in their life, even if I didn't actually want to be their girlfriend. It’s obvious why these relationships didn’t last, and it's better that way. I’m horrible, after all; I’m just an obsessive bitch starved for attention lol