wow

how does everything go wrong for me like i just want to be normal and live a normal life and i am just begging for something good or someone to be nice to me i am just so extremely sad and ive always told myself that i don't care and I have myself but that seriously isn't enough right now and I need someone to tell me that what im going through will turn out okay or at least I need help being happy or forgetting i just care so much and I cant sit here and not worry I need to leave I need so many things that just aren't going to happen for me and I wish I could say that that is fine that im not getting those things that im not even sure exist but I cant and I just want to live life how you are supposed to everywhere I go i cant be ignored I never feel safe I just want to feel safe why cant someone in my life help me