next??

i'm not sure what i should be doing with my life right now. when i graduated high school, i took a train to new york and didnt come back until i only had just enough money left to buy a train ticket back home. 

then i got a job, and now i feel like im stuck or not doing anything to advance myself. i always knew i wanted to stay learning in a scholarly setting for as long as i could, but college just seems like such a wasted opportunity if i cant do it fulltime. 

but i also want to work. i like working. i like money, i like being told i'm a quick learner and a key employee (which i get told often) but i want more.

i want to be complimented on my test scores again. on my thinking, on my creativity, on my logic. 

maybe i just need an even better job. service isn't for me anymore. i think i'd like to try working at another maritime center or park. maybe being a state park ranger is my next thing? i knew i always wanted to do science in my career.