Diary of a Middle Class Twenty Year Old

thursday, february 26th, 2026

  So far this morning has been pretty good, however I woke up with a strange realization. In the videos where people ask a question and say “wrong answers only” wouldn’t answering incorrectly be the correct answer due to them asking for an incorrect answer? So, technically, giving the correct answer would be the incorrect answer. Knowing this, what answer is the so-called wrong answer? Would it be the wrong answer that is technically right, or would it be the right answer that is technically wrong? 

 Anyways, this morning on the way to work I saw a train, but it was strange because it was only the locomotive with no cars and when it got to the crossroad the blockades didn’t drop until the last minute which seemed off to me. So, starting off the conspiracy theories, maybe someone stole it? Or maybe the brakes aren’t working and they will have to run it until it stops or put a blockade in the way. That would be pretty crazy.

  I have recently found out that a very popular internet couple has broken up, and I am not sure how to feel about it because their reactions were so different. It was kind of unexpected because they seemed like a happy couple, but I guess you never know.

  So, lately I have been listening to rain sounds while sleeping to see if it betters my sleep quality, and I honestly can’t see any difference. However, I have found that lofi or soft music does help me fall asleep faster; I haven’t really seen a difference in the quality of sleep in general, but I definitely fall asleep faster.

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    hope that if I ever do publish this that people make it entirely their own. I want to see books that are filled with annotations and comments. I want people to read my book like it’s some kind of rambling conversation with a good friend, and to add in their opinions. I also think it would be funny if an English teacher read the entire book just to make corrections on it. For anyone who is convinced that I write like I am dumb and didn’t pay attention in school, I promise that if I wanted to write a serious book I have incredible grammar and attention to detail. But that isn’t what this is about. You could even think of this writing style as a rough draft to an essay where you just scribble down your thoughts and make sense of them later on.

  I feel like my brain is just mush today. I have no idea what to write about. 

  I have felt so spacey lately, like I was trying to remember the video I watched last night and can’t even picture it. I wonder if anyone else gets like that. I have always heard that if you pop your joints too much that you could develop arthritis, but I don’t believe that because when I don’t pop my joints I feel awful. If my back needs to pop it even gets hard to breathe, so I think I’m just gonna risk it. 

  When I get home tonight  I need to do a load of dishes, and I really need to work on the crochet project that I started like 2 weeks ago and have not worked on since. I am trying out filet crochet to see if I like it or not, and so far, as long as you have the beginning chain at the right tightness then it’s pretty simple. 

-There is an alarm going off that sounds crazy. Oh, nvm it is gone. 

  Anyways, the project is going to end up having a sword in the middle with a border around it. It seemed like a simple, but still cool one to start out with. I have restarted probably 3 times and..

-Alarm again.. I wonder what’s going on.

  ..I am just ready to actually finish it. I am going to hang it on the wall which will be some of the first wall decor I will have in my camper.

  I sometimes have commentary in my head, like one does, and have noticed my increasing inability to keep my facial expressions to myself. I thought what they said sounded crazy but I didn’t want my face to express that out loud!! UGH!! 

-I wonder if it is a test alarm of some sort?..

   I saw a video this morning of a Rio parade, and now I want to go! It looks like so much fun, and the floats are so incredible!! Gonna take a quick lunch break TTYL! <3

   I’m back. During my lunch break I was watching ‘The Break Up’ and got about half way through it. I had one customer come in and I fixed her bracelet, and got tipped $3, which was very kind because it was a free service. I have to start thinking of ideas for earrings since my mom got me a kit for making them for Christmas, and I haven’t even touched it yet. I had a large collection of paper cranes that have mysteriously disappeared that were small enough to make into earrings that would’ve been super cute, so I’ll probably end up making more.

  I am pretty good at most crafts like origami, crochet, drawing, writing, and making or fixing jewelry. I’ve even thought about teaching arts and crafts online, but I’ve never been very good at taking pictures or videos. Maybe I’ll figure it out some day or maybe I could get someone to help me.

  Last night it was so windy I could feel the RV rocking and it was honestly a little scary. I need to get bricks for the tires and secure my front window cover better so that it doesn't rattle every time there is a breeze. The weather refuses to make up its mind, and here I was thinking I would get to swim soon. It hasn’t been very cold, but the wind chill is insane. I don’t know how it can make everything feel like it’s 10 degrees colder, but it sucks. 

    I have about 4 ½ hours left in my work day today. And, before you ask, no I do not have any idea who is getting me from work tonight. My typical ride to work put dashcams in the car because of a cop that keeps pulling them over and we ended up going a different way to work just to avoid them, so that was a pretty fun adventure.

  Lately I have been trying to manifest the things that I want in life, and since I started, I have felt so secure. I have exactly what I need and a little more and it has felt so amazing.

  I can hear people gossiping on the sidewalk and it always reminds me of the “and they were ROOMMATES?!” meme and honestly I kind of love it. The way that I have the stream set up, they can see my hands and I am curious if any of them can actually tell what I am typing. That would be funny and probably a little confusing for them since I started streaming about half way through. Lol. 

  I can hear people talking about the shop that i work at from outside the door and I wonder if any of them realize that I in fact can hear them. They have really nice English accents, and I kind of wish that I could’ve had a conversation with them just to hear it a little longer. Is that weird to say?.. Oh well.  -Phebe Rae 2/26/26