First blog n its just a short vent

Idk why it's so hard to keep good and consistent friendships with people. Nowadays it's like someone always wants something out of you, like...to be more active, mentally well enough to be there to listen and talk, be cool, funny, not socially awkward and etc. It's exhausting. But when you try your best to meet those expectations even when you're in the lowest point of your life, they leave and never contact you again. 

I know that we shouldn't expect people to be grateful for everything, I'm not saying that people should be thankful that I talk to them, because I don't see myself as that important or useful, but it would be nice to feel appreciated every once in a while, even for a moment. 

But uh yeah, it would be great if I could find a few friends on this site, though I have very low hope of getting any ᵕ᷄≀ ̠ᵕ᷅  just PLEASE BE OVER 20+ , otherwise I won't accept any friend req.