i give myself very good advice but i very seldom follow it

the only time i feel like writing something down in my diary is when i'm hollow and can't even bother to change a face expression if i had to. i hate how it's obviously a problem of social media addiction, yet the desire to keep up with new trends and to be able to fit in is stronger than the emptiness afterwards. i've thought about it so many times. i've come up with so many solutions. the only thing i seem to lack is the actuaal action for an extended period of time, not just a couple of days. i wonder what would have to change. will something ever change. how do i break the cycle if trying to do so is a part of it?

i reminds me of this moment from alice in wonderland that i love a lot

you might wanna check out this pogo remix too, tho everyone probably knows it anyway...

i'm tired of myself and i'm tired of how casual high screen usage is. i'm so drained right now. i've literally not done anything extraordinary today. all i want to do is sleep