school life (probably vent idk)

i swear to god my school is so fucking annoying, well atleast the students. i live in the netherlands i do kader. so, im alternative, skater you know i dress like alternative, right. so, the kids in my school call me a "kanker emo" which means Cancer emo, like the fuck? they're so annoying i swear to god. My class is so loud, and so not serious, somethimes its annoying, cus tell me why from behind me i hear random boys fucking moaning and doing the weird shit, and its always the SAME group of boys that think they're so cool and stuff while they are NOT. like they act little kids somethimes its so annoying, like just shut the fuck up. and the way they dress? and then judge ME? like erm so, check your clothes first before judging mine. 

so yesterday right, i was 15 minutes late because i was at the doctors office, so i got to school, but i was so scared to go into the classroom i hid in the toilettes, wanna know why? because they are going to be fucking stupid and annoy me so bad that im trying not to cry, mostly during class there is this guy in my class, lets call him apple, so apple always has to say SOMETHING about me, when im asleep during class because im to physicly and mentally tired to stay awake, he says something to my friends because we are a friend group. one of them, lets call her strawberry always laughs at his jokes about me, or when he says "oh look, she is asleep again." she fucking laughs, and the other one, lets call her cheese, either never says something, or tries to but ends up giving up, and cheese told me one time that "if you wanna be in the friend group you have to deal with apple." like the fuck? then i wanna be out the friend group, like and then when i come up to them to talk, you know what apple says to me? "get back to your seat and work." and then the three always end up messing around and laughing with eachotheir, its like they dont want me in the friend group, and honestly? fuck their stupid friend group. No because i dont wanna be surrounded with people who clearly dont want me, or dont give a fuck about me. 

so i made new friends. i have two friendgroup, one with three friends, the other with like six, or eight friends, so im way more happier, but i just hate it in class, and those three friends, lets call them watermelon, dragon fruit and coca cola, so i have a crush on watermelon, thats the whole thing, he likes me back, but he is in his last year, and told me he doesnt want a relation ship so he can focus on exams, because he gets stressed soe easily. and next year i wont see him and the others annymore, which honestly fucking sucks cus we have the same interrests and stuff, so yeah thats gonna suck.