DIY HRT (help my sorry ass)

Okay so im a trans girl and I haven't started estrogen and I really wanna start it but in m y country I can't untill i'm 18 but i've alraedy done through most of male puberty. I'm asking for help as I'm trying to find 50mg estrogen patches that ships to Croatia and that I don't need crypto for. Other dolls PLS HELP OUT A HOE.