JUICY AND LONG!! I have nobody to talk about this and its eating me alive so please read and give me answers

There's this certain boy in my school that I want to ge tot fall in love with me. I'm personally not interested in relationships, I just want some excitement in my life because I'm easily bored. I'm going to go through a time line of the order of events and PLEASE TELL ME IF MY PLAN IS WORKING OR NOT. Also, im referring to this special person as T

Oct3rd- Theres a ertain person that has piques interested in me that im plotting for them to be in love with me not the other way around. Trust i wont lose interest from overanalyzing in 3 days like i always do. Im four days in so far so strong.  Im glad he followed me first not the other way around on instagram. today i wass talking to T's hb tell me why when we were taking turns listing each others friends he said one of my pretty friends name like brooo he’s not even the guy im interested in but for him to recognize her right away means they talked about her in their little group. but his hb said he knew me, not my name which means i prolly piqued their interest or T hasn’t said anything and is reserving me HEHE.

Oct 5th ive been T's persons page the whole day like the whole hour, i also stare at his profile picture b4 I sleep so he’ll somehow think of me lol…i know fs it doesnt work b/c i saw it on tiktok

Oct 6 we had regular classes then came lunch (i promise his locker is downstairs but he’s always around when im there like stop playing eye tag and come holler at meee.)

Oct 7th - I knew it ! you wouldnt believe what happened. I know i wasnt tweaking when i said he’s lagging behind to make eye contact with meeeee because one of my friends was sitting at the benches and i was talking to her while everybody was transitioning between classes. When i felt the bell was about to ring -i saw his friends pass by not not T. He was no where near sight- i started walking to my next class then my friend said something so i turned around to respond and guess who i saw? My heart almost jumped out my chest like he scared me, there were still a few people in the hallway but still it felt like it was only us there . like he was so close to me if i had stayed still for even one second longer we would’ve collided w him or his face or smthggggg. I lowkey wasnt expecting that because i THINK i’ve been “delusional” idk i have a feeling he was looking for me . Sometime after school ended, there was a conflict between like rides between my family so i was calling my dad b/c he was just complicating things with the getting home situation and i was visibly annoyed and frustrated then my brother wanted to be pestering me ontop my annoyance. and so I was telling him to wait, but he kept pushing and being annoying but then since T is friends w my brother, he was beside him and intervened and said “stop, stop” i was like aww that was so sweet my heat melted. Bro he really scared me today because i was lowkey trying to avoid him since i felt my outfit wasnt tea today but why do i even caree anyways the brief eye contact we had today when he almost collided into me like boyy stop playing.

Oct 8-9th- i js have some slight tea, T had an ex and his ex apparently said hes taking interest in a new girl, idk the specifics and i dont caree he’s gna come back to me they always dooo. around october 24th i started giving up because he and his beginning of the school year new love interest started hitting it up, so i was like let me withdraw for a bit cuz i knew they were gna die out TOTALLYYY.

Sometime around december, i wore one of his friends shoes since we were family friends, and as soon as i stepped out T began questioning his friend abt the shoes, it was so satisfying like u care huh. Also one time T's friend who is one year older (my age) was asking me to come play basketball but then i said i had dance practice, and T quietly chimed in that i can just skip one class and come play with HIM (I toldd youuu he’s gna come back to mee).

January 20th- As i was walking out of class, T was about to walk in that my same class, but then he saw me , and typically people will just squeeze by but it was like those gentlemen movies, he just came out of the doorway entirely and instead of ignoring T like i’ve been since i thought we were done, and i was mad my fun  was short lived because of complications with his ex or his new love interest yada yada. But i wanted to rise tension again so i looked straight into his eyes and i think that activated something in him because usually, i just pretend i didnt see him. That's probably why when i came out to the hallway to get something from my locker, he also came out the classroom stylishly and started pushing and playfully shoving with that same friend in the same age as me, like literally go elsewhere! But i dont know why i was so quick to leave. Like as soon as i left my locker spot, his friend pushed him into exactly where my locker is so if i had stayed one more second he would’ve collided with me, like see the coincidence? Fast forward to after school i was coming out and T usually waits where he can see me but i cant see him unless i look a certain direction  in front of the school at a little corner anyways some of his girl   friends (-emphasis on the space-) i know from dance and bball so they said byee to me and i said it back and i saw his head like perk up. Then it was really cold outside so my friend and i decided to walk to the closest restaurant since its freezing then tell me why i see his whole group pulling up to the same resturant minutes later. The way my heart dropped likeee. Did i have that much of an effect on him that much that he want’s to be around me so bad like wow. I genuinely wasn’t expecting that, and i like when people surprise me cuz im usually predicting outcomes. Then out of all spots in the restaurant guess where their whole group sat? ALL AROUND my and guess where T sat?  HE can sit RIGHT NEXT TO ME. But i started getting queasy and uneasy because for some unexplainable reason whenever a boy shows interest in me and is doing actions to show that interest, i feel sick, im not sure how to explain it. I also want to keep it on the low so my friends wont even be able to tell im trying to make him fall in love with me. But i get bored, icked, and irritated SO easily lol. But why i am i even acting like we’ve even started talking like holler at me or smthg to entertain me, geez. Lets see how our little journey goes. I love how assertive and feral he became when i did something so little as make eye contact with him. Back to the resturant when they were figuring out where to sit, he was the first one to talk to me, T said “did you buy any food” and i pretended not to hear so he can look in my eyes longer, just to tease him. I know that definitely touched his soullll. My skincare was acting right that day, lipgloss on, and the sun hitting my face. Then T sat on the seat next to me and his friends followed behind. Then he uses style to talk to my friends little brother since i always talk to him so i look up only to catch him already staring at me. My friend kept coming over to me to collect hotspot since she didnt have wifi and she was sitting at the other resturant and she said something about how i need money and i said yes! Then literally At that moment  the sun was really hitting me so i decided to go sit with my friend  at the other restaurant since its like a 2 in one restaurant w different sides and tell me why T LITERALLY SAID “I need money soo bad” like loudly after. When we were seated,  I debriefed her on how i felt trapped and laugh to relieve tension b/c when someone is that close in the vicinity of me m toes be squeezing and im holding my breath, like i said earlier idk how to explain. Then as we were seating in the empty restaurant with seats tell me why 5 mins later, his group decided to migrate to the restaurant we were in like i KNOWW im not tweaking. The at one point when they all went to get food from subway, they were in a line then drink station and tell me why his group was far infront but he literally stopped, lingered in my spot as he was YELLING out to his friends an answer to something. Like he was walking with his friends to get drinks but as soon as he got BESIDE me he just stopped and was yelling to his friends from right beside me as he was standing next to me, T knew what he was doinggg. Like i was even looking at my friend like you’re seeing this?

February 6th- During lunch a classmate was sharing cake in the location that he usually sits for lunc which is the cafeteria so T saw a huge line of ppl but as soon as T saw me he started heading over to the sharing of cake, him and his friends, and he got courage to come ask me for something but i was sitting w my friend (but he was doing this trick where he’ll ask ur friend b4 asking u so it wont look like he came to see you) and he asked her then me for cutlery, when he was talking to me, he was looking like intently at me even though it was only for 4 seconds. Then later in the day we had a game upstairs in the gym and there was specific seating for specific grades and we were seated before him, when he came in he saw me and hesitated almost like his heart was telling him to come sit in our section but then his brain decided against it b/c his friends were with him, but i peeped ittt. 

February 18th- Some updates. Ok so a few weeks ago, he drove home with us, im not used to having action with people that like me, just watching from a distance. lol anyways i sat in the front passenger seat and he sat in the back right so i wanted to tease him so i looked throught the rightside mirror waiting for him to look ther because i know he will, when he did I ensured he was looking at me for a solid 3 seconds before I made a show of pretending to be flustered and look everywhere else. Then yesterday while we were waiting outside for my ride, i overheard him saying that his mom is coming to pick him up. Fast forward to when she did. as she was driving off, my friends were talking and unaware so i just made eye contact with him until he pased which was like 4 seconds and he did the same loll my plan is working because today as i was walking my friend to her class, he came out of his homeroom, class and gave me like a sassy look and i gave one back to him idk if my friend saw but it was like a little joke i guess lol, it was amusing he finally initiated eye contact/like jokingly?? with me w/o his friends being there . Though my friend was beside me, he asked both of us for food but he was looking at me... soo yeah thoughts on that? Anyways after lunch today was mass and when were were 5 mins from being ready i was searching for a particular someone to see if i could tease them or smthg but i didnt see, then js as i was abt to give up, i saw that particular someone standing up to use the "washroom" and looked like he was searching for someoneee~ then our eyes connected like a mutual connection and in his eyes i read like a "okay, there you are" but who knows i could be imagining things. But you'll think things wouldve ended there but no, when mass ended and we were taking our chairs back he sits on the very top far right me i sit on the very far bottom left imagine like a square, and JUST LIKE THE GAME HE LITERALLY MIGRATED ALLLLL THE WAY TO MY SPOT JS TO BE NEAR ME AS ME AND MY FRINEDS EXIT THE GYM like I KNOWWWWW im not tweaking likeee?? but i staggered to keep distance and kind of process or maybe see if he'll also stagger too lol. then when skl ended you think thats all but NO! aS ME AND MY FRIENDS WERE PACKING UP, WE WERE TAKING LONGER THAN USUAL TO COME OUT THE FRONT DOOR WHERE ILL FEEL his eyes on my so i kid u not, i saw him come into the school and down the hallway was where we were he didnt go any further than that, he js made eye contact w me twice as if urging me to come out IDKKKK OHH maybe im too perceptive im overthinking things LOLLL is my plan is working?? When we finally headed out i knoww he was starign or atleast recognized my presence but idk what are your thoughts both on myself and himself, go!

February 20th- During our class transition period at school, i typically walk my friend to class b/c I knew he has class down there so i want to bless him with a sight of me. We were going opposite directions which i thought was odd b.c we usually head in the same direction but then i figured he was gna use a tactic to come near me and i was right. I saw him coming down the stairs slowly after i had dropped my friend off. We didnt make eye contact, but i knew we were looking at each other through our peripheral vision. Then his friends asked why he took so long ad he said “ i keep forgetting where the  classroom is” and I was laughing in my head because you’ve been going to the right classroom and suddenly today you’re “forgetting” where it is. Even his friends didnt sound very convinced lolll.