Is it just me?

I'm currently in high school. I had entered high school exspecting highschool musical im not finna cap. 9th grade? The hoes in there are dumb. One girl asked, "If there were an earthquake, and the plane were in the air, would the plane shake too?" Girl, please respectfully in the most disrespectful way, please kys. I'm sorry. Being in high school made me lose all empathy for people, and I go to an all-girls school. People don't have any manners. Like y'all momma didn't send y'all out into life with no home training. Y'all have 1500 code names for 1500 boys. The last time I talked to a boy was in 6th grade. I crave male contact, but can't get it cause of my mother And even then, I was at an all-girls school. The boy I was talking to was at my summer camp, and my mother wouldn't let me add him on Roblox!  I miss charter school i swear that shit was wack sometimes, but it taught me how to act in professional settings. I have not had one basic high school experience, and im in the 10th grade. I haven't even had the motivation to do anything since esports in 9th grade. I swear, the more time goes by, the more I fear college. Should I go to an all-girls college? I hate to make it seem like it all revolves around boys, but I need it so bad, I swear, I feel like it needs to be part of the experience! UGHHH! I SWEAR! Then I want new hobbies, but the last hobby I had was painting. My mother broke all my glass paintings. I wanted to get into spells and i did that for a while. What i did aquire from high school so far it a friend that matches her trauma with mine and her freak with mine. I'm not even gay but going to school with girls since kindergarden does something to you I swear... I get a bit to comfortable with the ladies now. I really feel like i'm all over the place with this blog. Im sorry. bye