i want to do so much more!

February 25, 2026, Wednesday.

falling for forever, heckled by your dark dark eyes.

I put on a hoodie and walked to the park after school.

i didnt want to get my cute shirt dirty, and also i like to look more masculine when i walk around. i feel like people look at me less that way. 

i sat on the swings and then i pushed this little girl around the spinny thang for ten minutes while she sat on her phone. hurt my hand from pushing so hard.

she should not have a phone that early. im a bit contradictory, because i got a phone at her age, but i have a good heart so its okay. 

i feel like its weird to look at your phone while youre at the park. no, it is weird because she was so little. the park is MADE for little kids. anyways.

 When i got tired, i laid down under a tree and listened to music. then softball practice started about 100 feet away and i didnt need my headphones anymore because a skateborder brought a speaker. 

he and his friend skated for a while while blasting rap music and i thoroughly enjoyed watching them. 

i really want to learn to skateboard. i wanted to ask to borrow one of their boards for a second, but i just felt like watching from the bench.

(saw my science teacher from last year playing with his kids. saw him there with another dude and thought he was gay for a while. i know he has a wife but its fun to pretend. he has a big butt but whatevs. was always sticking his feet out. he seems very in tune with his chakras.

this was significant because i thought he moved away. he teaches in another state. i dont know.)

ava wants to skateboard too. i think i should get her a board for her birthday. in the hopes that she'll likely share it with me so we can go out and skate near my house.

i love ava so much. it feels like shes my other half, my best friend in the whole world. she gets me so well, and i just want to be around her all the time. 

when we go to highschool, which is barely 6 months away, these are my hopes:

* we both join asb and do cool stuff

* join theatre or band or something cool

* we both skateboard! so cool

* we play softball when the season starts

* we get at least two more friends

* we start a band at some point

for the last one, i feel it could likely happen. we both like music and we've discussed doing cool music stuff before. just need a goal or an idea. and also two other people. when we start a band, i definitely want to sing. ava's expressed that she wants to play drums. she would make an awesome drummer. has the passion. and the rage. hope she doesnt see this.

on another note: i took the myers briggs test again in school. i got ENTP-T, which is not too different from the last test i took. 

i got super excited when some website said that Jeff Winger from Community had my type. hes entp too! i love jeff, he shouldve gotten with the dean. #6seasonsandamovie