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I don't know why, but when I sit with myself and look around myself, and what is happening to me i feel like I am a complete loser, no job, no relationship, not married, not working, not travelling, just stuck in a depressive household with a narcissistic mother and an absent father and siblings who are struggling as well but at least have a path in front they can walk in, but me, i was the black lost sheep and here i am gaining the rotten fruit of what they planted into my garden. I wanna move out, but even dont have any money or a job for that. I feel like I'm running into a spiral with no ending
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Samson 🔳
Alright I'm gonna be real with you , life is hella confusing and depressing , BUT one must not let that box them in . I was in a place just like this not so long ago , but I had a path and putting in effort for it has put me in the place that I am rn . I got into college , got great friends and life is going good.
My message to you is , if YOU want YOUR life to be good , YOU'RE gonna have to put in work . Its hard , its harsh and its cruel but once u realize that your happiness is truely a product of your actions , you'll get to it .
If you personally need help feel free to reach out.
I really appreciate the message. It really cheered me u. Thank you ☆
by .𖥔🇱🇮🇱🇾 ݁ ˖; ; Report
You´re so right with that. I feel the exact same. It´s hard work you won´t feel good while changing something, you often question yourself, thinking:"This won´t change a thing anyway" but long-term wise, it does.
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Alex
No you´re not a failure but it might be helpful to change something. Anything. If you can´t find a minijob, job at all, try to change your mindset.
The world is unfair. The household you live in is unfair. But you can free yourself from it in your own way. Focus on yourself and your success in life. You have to change your inner world so you can believe in yourself again. Do little steps. Maybe there´s a way to safe some money, maybe you can get a part time or minijob nearby to earn at least a little money.
If your mother is toxic, just let her words go in your ear and out again. If you can´t listen to her anymore and want her to stop talking, just say:"I have to think about it for now" even if you don´t. But she feels like you do.
Especially with this situation, you´re the only one who can safe yourself. It might sound scary but with realizing it shows how much power you have.
I believe in you. You´re strong.
Thank you so much. I appreciate your words, you're such a sweet soul :(
by .𖥔🇱🇮🇱🇾 ݁ ˖; ; Report
I wish you the best. I also have a lot of struggles and feel like a failure a lot of times. But actively doing little steps helps me to slowly build it up. At least for now.
I want to motivate you to do the same.
You know, I´m unemployed since two years now, a lot happened. I´m writing mails, include documents but I get a lot of rejections from companies. A lot of times I feel like giving up and accept the fact that nothing will change. But if I don´t do anything, indeed nothing will change.
Today I finally got a friendly mail for an internship. I have hope again.
I hope you will find your hope too! You´re not alone with your thoughts!
by Alex; ; Report
alleycatboy
speed is not what determines if you are a failure. truly giving up is the distinguishing factor. i don't mean temporary set backs or stopping for a bit; i mean giving up entirely.
there were years where i was far behind my peers, so far that it didn't seem like it was possible for me to make even a fraction of their progress. i felt as if my prior mistakes, lack of track record, economic position, personality, and general life had stacked up against me to the point where they were insurmountable.
i did not surrender and kept fighting for opportunities wherever i could find them. progress came gradually, then suddenly. it felt as if i had slingshot past everyone i knew, going from so far behind to so far ahead.
you are still early into your journey. when we are not born with luck, we must create our own luck. opportunities may be rare, but we have to be ready for when they do appear.
artificial luck = preparation + opportunity
this life won't swallow you whole
Wow.. iam not kidding, but you don't know how much that meant to me
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Selphira/Selphie
Very sorry for your life here. I do can try understand you're position. As you said, you are black sheep.
But you are not alone here, not at all. Maybe people won't look into your blog, but I noticed it. So you definitely not alone. Or at least, this what I'm thinking, writing this.
Hope that you feel something warm in my words. Take care of yourself for me, will you?
I will and thank you so much, sweet soul :((
by .𖥔🇱🇮🇱🇾 ݁ ˖; ; Report
Soul? I'm Goddess, of course I have a kind soul! He-he, joking. I'm just glad you feel good from my words, that's all.
by Selphira/Selphie; ; Report