2/24/26

2/24/26

i didnt go to school today cuz i had to go to a big fucking hospital for cardiology  i havent been in that hospital in years it was weird being tehre again. there was a huge puddle of blood in front of the doors which is Not fun to see in front of a childrens hospital ew OK WHATEVER umm i went there to describe my symptoms and shit and they hooked me up to a bunch of wires for a minute (which was fucking awesome i love wires i felt so robot) and then they did a heart echo on me for like an hour  and i do not have anything physically wrong with my heart thankfully. but unfortunately that meant there is not a clear reason for my fuckass symptoms. the cardiologist just said its some form dysautonomia or however you spell that  that will most likely fade as i get older and i got a heart monitor put on for the next 2 weeks. i had to take my shirt off a total of 8 times dude i kept putting my shirt and sweater back on just for them to make me take it off again right after LMFAO. i m annoyed about the heart monitor because the whole situation is so annoyign to me i just hate living when i feel so sick constantly . the heart monitor results will take 6-8 weeks to be looked over so like 10 weeks of waiting and i have a feeling there wont be anything too substantial and itll just be like Yeah theres something wrong with you but we dont know what Sorry and then itll be for nothing BuT I GOTTA. STOP BEING SO NEGATIVE. ARGH . it will beok it will b e okaayyughhh UUGHHH.WHATEGVER. went to target after and got a water bottle ive been wanting so i can match with my friends that have the same one  its one of those squeeze gatorade ones and i like to use the ones my friends have so i got one and i got some liquid iv stuff cuz tehy were mad at me for beign dehydrated. while i was at target i found this big ass bunny plushie thats so so cute its more realistic than most bunny stuff i see and itsSOOOO CUUTEEE my mom got it for me ^_^ its so soft and is like perfect size to lay on my chest so ive just been laying with it. its light brown i need to think of what to name it I kind of want to figure out if i can sew a dewlap onto it LOL. ive just been in bed since i got home because my heart feels so fucked bruh I have to carry aroiund a little booklet to write down symptoms in whenever i press the button on my heart monitor to mark when i feel symptomatic. just kind of crazy . i drew my oc with the same monitor because i put him through everything i have to go through because i dont like him . i dont want to go to school tomoorrow but i miss my friends

today is day 633 no shinjiro and 604 no makoto