On Life Without Have Her Love...

This is about a platonic relationship.

I moved to a new city, and I made a new best friend after losing everyone I had. I Love her so much. before not even platonically i loved her for every fiber of my being, that hasn't changed, just the way has shifted. I would still give everything up to be with her if I could. She came on road trips and spent most weekends at my house, she listened to me complain about everything, and id listen to her. Life without her isn't the same, but she moved, i cant find anyone to take her place to be close to me. I have my boyfriend, but everyone knows it isn't the same. She was my best friend, and without her i feel so alone. She was the only person who really seemed to understand me, and everyone else is so distant. I don't hang out with friends, and I don't go out or have fun. My hangouts are just sitting on our phones when I would have so much fun, so I don't even really want to hang out, i cant talk to anyone about my problems. I miss her everyday even if I don't text her i still think about her, and I talk about her all the time. I feel like I lost the love of my life, and I wasn't even in love with her like that. its been almost a year, and I still can't seem to handle it. Thinking about it too deeply makes me sob. I don't know what to do without her; life doesn't seem fun. I know she just moved, but texting isn't the same, and calling s either, and neither of us really likes to talk on the phone. She has moved on, she has all these friends, and I feel so utterly alone. I knew she was my best friend, but I didn't realize how truly empty life had become without her. I only knew her for a year and a half and got closer to her than to anyone I had met before childhood friends. I can't believe how much I miss you. I knew I would a lot, but it feels like you died even though you didn't. In your life, I'm not relevant to my life. You are everything I love you so, so much.