big fat fuhhhking sigh

you know it’s bad when i resort to spacehey =| 

life’s been so tragic lately, my dogs really ill and it hurts seeing her so sad and lethargic, i’ve been subbing at work and it’s difficult i mean the kids r nice n everything (for the most part) i just dont think i was built to be a teacher. ive been having a terrible insomnia flare up for a while now and its making me feel so pathetic. staying up until 6am every night is gonna catch up to me!!! also almost out of pills so i’m refraining from using them in case i really need them but oh my god do i miss them genuinely the only thing that makes me feel like a normal human being who isn’t absolutely soaping with anxiety !!!!! i feel like my anxiety right now is at the worst it’s been since welllllll that thing i don’t like mentioning =[ sigh 

all i can do is hope something will change 

like what did i even do today

i think i woke up headed straight to work did my classes went shopping went home n ive been in my bed since 

i genuinely do nothing with my life and its horrible. i need to get out more but the concept of leaving my house peaks my anxiety so im just stuck in this horrible cycle