You're a monster to someone

I've been thinking for the last couple of days about how the internet has turned us all into monsters. Now hear me out before you automatically jump to conclusions. When I say that we're all monsters it's more of a subjective concept. It's more about the perspective that I see one person and how another person sees me.

Some people will find you endearing while some people will find you creepy. No matter what you do You're never going to be able to escape the idea. There will always be somebody who doesn't like you. It was something that I had to learn when I became a YouTuber. Someone even pointed that out to me And even to this day, I still hate the idea. Realistically, who wants to be hated?

Anybody that actually goes out of their way to be hated probably is doing it because probably, a number of reasons. That's just me saying I actually don't have a direct answer but if I had to guess it was probably something to do with somebody else was mean to them, somebody pissed them off enough, they realize that people in society are stupid, and I'll admit I've pushed people away that I probably shouldn't have.

I think at some point in our lives we've all said and done stupid stuff and we regret it. I probably burnt more bridges than I meant to and the biggest thing that I hate is not having the opportunity to fix them. I think the saddest part about it is that once you're a monster you're always going to be that monster to that person and that person that sees you as the monster doesn't ever want to try to fix the situation ever.

I've been on both sides of the fence. I'm not going to deny the fact that there are people who have come to me and asked me for forgiveness and I've denied it. And I've done the exact same thing. I think that we all have these feelings that we don't like but what can you do?

Do I hate how I treated my first girlfriend? Sure. Did she and I finally have a discussion about it after 10 years? We did. Does she think I'm the most horrible person in the world? No. We both understood that it was both our first major relationship and neither of us really knew what we were doing and when we became adults we sat down and talked about it. Well, chatted over Facebook but same difference. Now she's with her boyfriend and makes her happy so I'm happy that she's happy.

What I want everyone to consider here is that you don't know what's going through somebody's head and vice versa. Don't be afraid to ask questions. Also, don't be afraid to stand up for yourself. I want to in this blog on a positive note. I want people to think about this. I want people to really ask yourself, am I a monster or am I misunderstood? Maybe you're just a misunderstood monster. That's okay. Like I said, I'm not going to make everybody happy and neither are you. You can do the best that you can but nobody's Mr Rogers.

Lastly, there are people out there I wish I could apologize to but I know that they're never going to listen to me. I know that no matter what I can't win. It's not possible. They will always be people out there who despise me, hate my guts, want to see me fail, but I'll tell you this, I actually don't want to see anybody fail. In fact, I would rather forget that you exist then want you to fail. It's easier to focus on myself and what's in front of me and the people that are in my life then the focus on the negative and try to make things worse and I know, people who pay attention to my blog on here will say that there's a lot of negativity but it's more that I see a lot of negativity and I hate that.

Published by Tarrabyte.exe

You're a monster to someone

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