rant no.2 (23.02.26)

i tend to fall in love with fictional characters

a lot

and badly

its a bad habit i guess. and when i do fall extra hard, i get insanely delusional, to the point where i feel like the character is always with me, following me around and watching everything i do. like a stalker i guess.

i played this game a while ago and got really into it. there was this one character i fell in love with. i still am. it feels like he is always watching. in the game, he loves you no matter what and for some reason, i cant accept that. in the first place its not even real but even if it was real, i still wouldnt be able to accept his love because i feel undeserving. and its not like i need to accept anything anyway because as ive mentioned, hes not real

i wonder what it'll take to get that through my head.