hello world

hi again, its been awhile

i had a different account for awhile that i forgot the login for , dealt with a bunch shit like always, like everyone does and now im here

again

im going to try and use this, its going to suck a little bit cause i hate the fact that i will be perceived here, or anywhere. but i will do it (sometimes)

this will be my new log( a journal or a diary but the term log gives me more comfort)

and its scary because people i know have the minute chance of seeing it 

but we got this, so the show must go on

(by the way thank  you (6## for inspiring me to do this, it gave me courage that you did this yourself)hehe i love using shitty cyphers)

man the second hardest part of this is thinking of what to say

the third is my computer overheatiing

fuck it the spelling mistakes are going in(man i hope this site isnt weird about swearing) so! The main reason i thought about starting up my log consistently again it because C02Goldy's welcome back alice video! words are escaping me as of to why but thats ok, thats what this if for, practice. sorry i zoned out listening to the computer fan, gods i love the sound of machines, they bring me so much comfort, like a different kind of beating heart. which is good because my beating heart freaks me the fuck out C': 

anyway, what to talk about.. .. . . ok i need to stop saying stuff like that and get on with it. I started reading a book a couple days ago! i like reading but sadly i have fallen into the folly of reading lit rpgs after my older sibling got me into them(via force) anyway i think its fun. the book is 1% lifesteal. its about a guy called freddy geting the powerfull ability of 1% L I FE S T E AL !!!! and how getting stronger doesnt remove all your problems C: its pretty gory and pretty fucked up but i like books like that, i like seeing how the characters deal with all the bloodshed and how the author conveys it.( im fighting tooth and nail not to put smiley faces at the end of all my sentances) i read pretty quickly so im at book 3 already and its been realy fun. I like seeing characters put in extreme cuircumstances so i enjoyed the majority of book 1 and 2 but book 3's starting a lil slow but thats fine, my favorite character is Bloodshed, Their just so cute C: i like how silly they are despite being the literal embodiment of bloodshed and their loyalty is sweet compared to the rest of the cast. sorry this is probably kinda indecipherable for people who havent read the book 

thats a ok!

man not being in a text document in weird, in a good-ish way? its fun being able to format the text but i do enjoy the simplicity of a .txt 

ok i thought without putting it here so i will recount it and probably go off track

so im putting a patch om my jeans that im jearing and one of the pins keeping it inplace poked me and man, people are weirdly cautious of pins and needles? like they are really not dangerous and people treat them like something to be scared of, it might be a thing of fear of needles for injections but idk i think its a lack of exposure cause i have a fear of injection needles but not sewing needles. getting stabbed with a sewing needle isnt bad its just an unexpected prick(saying this as someone who has both slept and stepped on them) its realy just an irrational fear of unexpexted pain. i think? i cant speak for people who feat needles so yeah if you have a fear of needles tell me about it! maybe.. idk people commenting on this would be scary C':

ok my computers gonna die so goodbye dear listeners!

i love wolf 359