is it wrong to wish for intimacy?

when I was in middle school I didn't care for relationships like yes I had little talking stages but it never went anywhere. I would ask guys on pizza dates but then at the last moment invite my girl-friend it. the concept of hanging one on one with a guy was not weird but also I don't want to be near you alone type of way . I made a move once and it was like me touching their face and quickly reeling my hand back.  Middle school was weird.

Now that I'm older and have acquired a phone and I don't  use an old laptop and discord to communicate I wonder if Im missing anything. I want someone to hug and cuddle but I don't want anything else. would that even be considered intimacy or what. I hate the new term of wanting connection cause I have my close girl friends for that. I don't know what to even wish for.