School is a disgusting place

 All my life I hated school, I associate it with torment and humiliation. In elementary school, I had the only friend with whom I spent all my free time but then she moved to another city and I was left alone. 

 When I moved to middle school, things got a lot worse!! There was a complete change of teachers and they are all just disgusting, only 1-2 teachers were normal. A math teacher who yells like she's being killed, and if u don't understand a new topic in geometry or dare to copy your homework, it's easier to kill yourself. A computer science teacher who has so much courage and self-esteem that it can be distributed to the whole school. She'll embarrass you in front of the whole class and call you "stupid" without even remembering your name. Or a biology teacher who apparently had VERY little attention from men in their youth and now it is taking revenge on 12-15-year-old teenagers. Seriously, so many jokes about genitals, jokes about her marrying someone from our class (SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT A 12-YEAR-OLD BOY) , I've never heard. U can't complain to the director, she doesn't care. 

 If it were only about teachers, I probably wouldn't even write about it. But from the end of the 6th grade to the beginning of the 8th grade, I was called names times in the hallways at school, as well as on the Internet. Was it not so insignificant? Yes. Was I offended then? Yes, it was. They took pictures of me and my friends and then said that we were "autistics" and that we stand out with. Shouted at me that I "lesbian" only because of a shirt with drawn cats, and just looked askance and pointed their fingers. I'm an insanely anxious person, and the very idea of "rumors" scared me. Even now, I walk around the school anxiously, afraid of attention to himself. 

 I don't have any friends left, so I'm at school with one earbud in my ear all the time. It helps me, listening to music in class or playing in the phone during lessons. Time flies faster, and I can get home to my bed as soon as possible. 

On Tuesday I go to school, and I am mentally preparing for this.