ive been sleeping a lot more than what i usually do and its pissing me off so much

this past week I listened to 3 albums! forest spirit, sun on your back, ten songs by i hate myself, and i want to be there by sadness.

to be honest ive been thinking of hurting myself. im not sure why but its been really plaguing my mind. i took my dads razor from his room and ive been inbetween on using it on myself. completely honest, i dont know why! recently there's just been this absolutely horrible feeling. its been completely destroying me from the inside. maybe itll pass, maybe ill fold and hurt myself, NO CLUE! whatever it is i just hope it leaves me soon. I hate this feeling so so so much rageee.