my dad is such a crashout bro i swear

yo so like i had an extra phone because my dad put a bunch of parental controls on the one he bought me, and like i would understand if it was like after midnight i couldn't use my phone until like when i normally wake up because he wants me to get a good nights sleep right. but no he made it so i have 3 hours on my phone a day which i would regularly use all of it, i cant use my phone during school, he put it from 8am-3pm even though my school starts at 8:45, and my phone shuts off at 10pm until 7 am.

I got like fed up with this so i factory reset my old phone and used that instead during like lunch break and sometimes at night when i wanted to message my girlfriend. i thought this wasn't that big of a deal and if he like caught me or whatever, the most that could happen is i get like maybe 2 hours on my phone instead of 3. so i went on using the old phone whenever i felt like it.

my parents are divorced so when i accidentally pulled out the wrong phone from my pocket in front of my mom and she talked to me about it she didn't really care that much. but this past weekend (when i was at my dads house) it was like 3am and i was half asleep with my lamp on scrolling on tiktok in my bedroom, i suddenly fell asleep by accident, old secret evil phone in hand. Then at like 6 am i get woken up by my dad because hes confused as to why my lamp is on that early in the morning. I'm like still half asleep so I didn't really know what was going on, and he notices the phone in my hand and the phone on my like nightstand thing and gets so mad and takes my phones, laptop and CD player. he has to go to work so he says hell talk to me after. 

fast forward to when he gets back, he sits me down at the dinner table and starts screaming, not like low key mad and raising my voice, like people could probably hear him outside. So he normally tries not to swear that much unless he's like really mad, so when i hear him saying shit like "you think i'm a fucking idiot" and "this is what makes you so retarded" and some other bullshit i know i'm fucked. he yelled at me for what felt like 30 minutes but by the end, he decided that this is such a big deal that i cant see any of my friends, have my phone, have my computer and like do anything for two fucking weeks.

like i promise its not that deep but i'm like kind of scared of my dad because he used to hit me and hes like really idk the word but sort of assertive and controlling you know? so i don't fight back or try to argue his decision but I can't even message my girlfriend to tell her or any of my friends so it's like really annoying. and on top of that him calling me like so many different things and yelling at me all the time makes me feel like shit and he gets into my head and its like so down-putting. 

eventually i built up the courage to call him and talk about it and he was still like so pissed, when he was like clearly being stubborn about me seeing my girlfriend so i tried ending the convo but he got mad about that too. we ended up having a 45 minutes call and the conclusion was that i can do whatever my mom thinks is a good like punishment, but if i do that he's going to be really disappointed in me and think i'm a pussy and like all this other bullshit about me not being a "man". I obviously chose to do that because why the hell wouldn't I chose the easy way out but like, even though i know I shouldn't care about what other people think because it doesn't really matter and i normally don't but like from my dad it like stays in my head and like gets to me sometimes you know. honestly i don't think hes like very good of a person sometimes and he really pisses me off.

holy fucking rant my badd i alr know no one is reading this i just wanted to like write shit down