I have no one to talk to and I wanna talk so I'ma talk about my crush :3

So as you saw in the title I'm gonna be talking about my crush I'm not gonna say his name for.. reasons but anyways we're gonna call him doorknob cause yeah :0 anyways so like he's sooooo confusing I mean it seems like he likes me but it also doesn't idk I've told him and he just doesn't say any thing or he walks away and I mean I know it's like he doesn't like me but I always see him looking at me and always being close to me like the other day he was all the way on the other side if the classroom and he somehow ended up right next to my seat when he got up and there was nothing he needed or that was his next to me but tbh I might just be delusional atp idk what to do cause i really like him since last year but he's just so confusing but its ok cause he's sooooooooooo cute like bro I love his hair so much and last year he would wear a mask and now he doesn't and he's so handsome but I feel bad for him cause people made fun of his voice and idk why and he gets called goth when he's not goth even tho I do love goths he's not one amf its so annoying that no one knows what goth is like do your research at least anyways back to him he's always wearing this black jacket and he looks so good in it I hate that he covers his head with his hoodie tho but the principal always makes him take it off so that's nice anyways I reallllyyy hope he came to school today or ima crash outttttt he didn't come yesterday and it was horrible without him but maybe he's here today so yeah I get to see him in PE and science I'm so excited and PLEASE tell me if I'm delusional