Living in the U.S right now is terrifying

I live in the U.S, in a blue state but a conservative area and everything is too weird and scary, I don't really know how to cope or how to move. 

To preface this, I'm queer and Hispanic. I know I'm lucky to live in an area that hasn't yet been affected by Ice raids, but I'm scared that we're close to being there. There's a weird middle line that I don't know how to step around when it comes to just existing right now. 

On one hand I'm proud of who I am and I would never change it for anything. I love knowing that there's parts of me that I can express so deeply with other people and they somehow just get it. And I want to be loud and proud, I want to go to pride parades and protest and I want to fight for myself and others. I'm not going to hide those parts of me, and I'm not going to let a fascist government make me feel ashamed or scared of those parts of me.

But, on the other hand I am terrified of what they're doing to intimidate and push us back. I have a future I want to look forward to and so does my family and all these other people just like me, and I don't want to put a target on our backs, especially not right now. I have plans and a life I want to live, but I cant do that if I'm dead. I don't want to die, but my government seems to want me gone. I won't give it to them voluntarily, not in a million years but, how is it that I'm supposed to be open about myself when they're targeting and killing us. 

I'm not giving up hope, I've seen even where I live young people and older people protest and rally to have their voices heard. I've seen protest from around the U.S of other states doing the same thing. I'm hopeful but I'm scared. There's a government in control of our lives, and they are actively fighting against their people, and the people are fighting back but what about everything else? How do you live a normal and fulfilling life when you're fighting for it everyday.