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OK so college Claire was commenting on my Instagram post and said my real name instead my false name Tulip and telling me how she loves me and and tell me how brilliant and amazing I am which kind of kind of fuels my big ego kind a like a fuckin train but I also wanna scream at her to reveal my name and make people easier to dox me  Do horrible things to me such as killing me probably raping me telling false information and I'm kind of worried I'm going to get in danger because her saying my name in real life and I don't want to even communicate her because it's kind of ball of it I haven't sick and tired of her for like a while I just want cry and sleep all day And I think of college I have to apologize a lot of times for my childish interest because I'm worried everyone be fucking mad at me for having interests have a 5 year old or an 8 year old or a 12 year old it's kind of embarrassing I also asking Learning facilitators and my professor what their favorite Pokémon is like a fucking retard I also can't find any  friends that are into into Pokémon or anything I like for the most part it's very rare to find people that have common similar interest This is getting difficult I don't wanna live anymore because of this this is so fucking difficult please  kill me now I am getting sick of living I am getting sick of shit I want don't want to live anymore this is getting annoying on my nerves but I'm very excited to see my friend on the bus end of the day of college I'm I hope you guys see her she's she's sweet and quiet I like her i'm not gonna reveal  her name i'm going to give a fake name her name is  Nancy cause Nancy downs and the aunty were from Stranger Things So Nancy is gonna go to my bus at the end of the day and I'm very excited so we can chat I've been listening music for the rest of my bus thing and I'm really excited just really excited to see her but I'm not expected to be in the bus stop because it's like where you live in separate schools But she is really sweet and quiet and I like her I like her conversation she's older than me 26 she works at a grocery store I when re met her I acted very childishly and maturely because I didn't understand that she was working at the cashier or whatever and I feel bad even now but we're starting to get a good friendship II think I don't know I don't know if she likes me or not or trying to entertain my delusions or whatever I think like a lot of things I've like I enjoy her company and like she sweet and loving and like in a delusional sense I'm i'm going into the delusion sense I don't make any sense like a look at idiot on drugs but I hope I get get some nice lunch II wanted a walking Taco I listen to my music and jam and chill Probably the park where I got from Disney Day

February 19 2026

going to bed probably going to jerk off