I think the prozac is working /hj

I've been in a good mood for a few weeks and it feels amazing. I don't understand why I wasted half of my life being depressed when I can just be chill. 

When I was at rock bottom I would always just think and try to imagine what it would be like to not be depressed and I thought it would be like I was always super happy. Almost manic. But it's really just feeling content with my life.

In the past the issues that a lot of 18 to 20 year old's struggle with would stress me out so much that I wouldn't want to live anymore, like not being able to drive and struggling with finding a job. But now when I think of those things I tell myself I'll figure it out eventually. 

 I also hate my current job less now. Ya, I know it sucks and my body hurts really bad when I'm done but at least I get to talk to my work friend and I'm making money some how. I also tolerate my boss more now lol.

And I thought living with my parents would be the end of the world after high school but honestly I'm super lucky. My mom left my dad shortly after I graduated and my environment got healthier so it makes it so much easier to not have a place of my own. Plus, it's kept me a lot safer.

Out of almost 20 years of my life I have never felt this content before, I'm so proud I made it this far.