i pass and i am feminine. my height ruins it

inb4 "my steak is too juicy and my lobster is too buttery" complaint

but no, seriously. i am feminine when i want and i pass, rarely do people know out of the gate im trans just by looking at me. what usually makes it click for people is when I talk, my voice ain't too deep but i never cared for voice training, i like the way it sounds.

what kinda ruins everything for me is my height and im a bit tired of it. i was 1.86m before starting my transition and i still managed to grow another 4/5 centimeters before 21. i currently stand at 1.91m and while i do like tall women idont really like when im the tall girl lol

this is the main reason i don't really wear heels even tho i think they're beautiful, cuz i'd prolly get closer to 2m if i did and im scared shitless of that. i honestly wish i could take 20 to 30cms off my height and distribute it to my male friends. i dont really think about that much when im in a good mood but it's past 11pm and i can't sleep so i cant stop thinking about it. old woman rambling