DEEPLY UPSETTING WEEK (dump)

Hey guys , I know the week still hasn't finished ,but it has been ROUGH!

My uncle died , he had dementia but I will always remember him as a really kind soul :).

Every day I have to go to school ,come back , go 3h to gymnastics, come back , eat study and manage to go to sleep early (which is basically impossible if I want to look at my phone a bit)

I don't have a social life (like none at all) , since I live on a mf hill my mum won't take me anywhere if it means doing more than 10 km (but really I don't blame her , car gas prices have been skyrocketing lately).

I see everyday people meeting with their friends , go clubbing , or having a  birthday party, while I watch Dan and Phil videos on my phone . 

I watch videos of myself from two years ago and I don't recognize myself , I feel weird. 

My dream university are inaccessible to me , and I feel if I stay too close at home I'd be a failure and end up like my mum.

And freaking worst of all , when I go to gymnastics (mind u this is voluntarily my last year) , I feel too old . This sport has literally ruined my body (and lately my belly piercing too. My teachers when they see us "seniors" talking tell us to go practice EXCEPT WE ARE NOT THE STUPID F PEOPLE WHO DESPERATELY NEED TO PRACTICE WHEN THE 'JUNIORS" LOOK LIKE UNGRACEFUL TWIGS! 

I've been dedicating this sport 10 years of my life , I've won so many medals and cups and titols. Sadly I'm aware that I chose an agency that doesn't do super high level competitions, but my mum didn't know any better.

This dump's object is not pity , it's literally just a dump of this shit show ,ass of a week.