two years have now passed

hi fellow internet weirdos! i remembered my account on here and thought perhaps i should revisit my old page. the most spectacular and interesting things have taken place... there is much to discuss but i will summarize.

less than a year after my previous post, the group of friends i held dear collapsed around me, and although it made me deeply sad to lose their accompaniment in my life, it brought me that much closer to those who decided to stick with me.

in 2024, i sold my car beluga and lost my religion. i have regretted only one of those decisions since that day, and it was not the belief in a higher power. i drove a quite nice vintage car for about a year that i also look back on fondly, but it was nearly costing me my job due to the issues it had. i am now driving a beater and things had been good for about two months before putting me in the same situation again now. i do not know what to do, but i do know that beluga was my guardian angel and i forsake her.

in 2025, i finally completed the accursed higher education arc of my life, although there is a part of me that craves more knowledge. it was truly the most sadistic side quest of all time.

i grew so much in 2025. never believed in zodiacs but it *was* my year. i had several “almost” relationships that didn’t pan out over the past several years, but all is well. i wasn’t truly in the right headspace for that anyhow. in the springtime of last year, i met someone amazing by random chance in a random class i chose during my last semester of university.

she is the most interesting person i have ever had the pleasure of having in my life. i fell for her quickly but kept my feelings to myself, and instead sought to make friends with her, believing her to be completely out of my league and uninterested. that was foolish, i suppose. we had our first date in january and we spent the most wonderful day together on valentines and again for the lunar new year yesterday. i still cannot get over the fact that i am not dreaming, and that an intelligent, beautiful, delightfully funny and sweet person such as herself would have not only given me a chance, but would show me so much grace as i struggle to get my bearings as i figure out what it means to support one another in a dating relationship.

i am finally happy.