TW

TW bbs if u get triggered by stuff don't read this 

ok so I have been like a few months clean from sh but now that they are fading I want them back I feel better like less depressed and my life is going kinda good rn but I want to start again when I think ab sh again I fell ich under my arm waiting to be scratch deeper I want to do it again but will it fuck up my life I fell good and happy but it's still there it doesn't matter right it won't affect me that much it cant bc am better I really am I swear