Should I quit and go back…..

I am genuinely struggling with everything right now, and I feel so bad because I feel like I can’t ask anyone for help in my school, my friend group or my mom. It hasn’t even been a week since I quit, and I want to die already. I feel so alone right now because some of my other close friends didn’t know that I vaped, and if my mom knew gosh… i dont want to know her reaction. She works in a pretty big hospital and she would tell me stories about people who vaped or other drugs. She would be so disappointed if she found out her daughter did that…. Ever since I dropped my bad influences, I have felt more alone and scared. I am scared of myself. Over the weekend I couldn’t get out of bed, that is why I wasn't too active. I have been diagnosed with depression for a while now, and it is getting much worse. I’m not using that to make people feel bad for me, it is true and I would not lie about an illness. And on top of everything that has happened with me getting SA’d things have just been hard right now… i don't even know why I am still here if I am being honest. I had a few fail attempts that no one knew about, I am not gonna say what I did to myself cuz that is too personal. And like I said I am not here for people to be “aww im so sorry”, and I am not using this platform for getting love. I am here to tell people the hard reality of having an addiction,depression, and feeling alone on a daily basis even when I have friends, people who love me. It is a hard thing to deal with, and do I want to go back to the vape, yes do I know it's for the better if I don't, also yes. Anyways that's all I needed to vent about right now. I am so fucking tired and I feel so down