kill the girl

man i gotta find a way to control the amount of rage that i feel daily bc when i can't do something that i really wanted to do i start to hit things and cry like my life ended.

i made a little letter for him, i feel rejected even though things aren't anyone's fault, i gotta kill the lover girl in me. i don't even want to write about how i feel anymore, i just want to stop feeling, how people read ts and still can't understand me, i'm a pain in the ass, i'm sensitive, i'm romantic, i'm not a casual bitch and i'll never be one, why people is so affraid of commitment? i don't belong anywhere anymore, i don't think i ever did, my life is ending sooner than i thought. i'm ok tho, i'll keep filming and playing like everything is alr.