Turmoil :'-)

My tires are flat!!! All the therapists I'm calling to get on HRT aren't available!!! What ever shall I do???

I feel the passage of time ruining my body every day I'm not on estrogen even though I know its completely made up, but I feel it slipping away!!! I will call more tomorrow morning anyway.

There is a silver lining: looking for rental houses with my girlfriend!!! Finally I will be able to move out of this house!!! It's been a long 22, soon to be 23 years here, and I really can't wait to have my own space with the one I love. I might even get a new job which is also exciting! I do have some anxiety about that though, currently I make enough to budget a rental like that but I have no idea what will be around where we move to! That's one thing we'll have to consider I suppose.

After I'm on HRT, I will probably finally have a time bomb about coming out to my family as well. My friends at least know I'm taking steps towards transition, but as for my girlfriend I've been living as a woman for a year or so now. It's stressful but I know it will be worth it in the end.