nostalgia blog 4: emotional ov3rload

hi!! welcome back to my nostalgia blog, my weekly blog for my thesis project!! This weeks theme: emotion1!!11!

I am watching wizards of waverly place while i'm writing this. im at the mason arc. gross-out.

anyways this past weekend was valentines day!! probably my fav holiday :) even if it is a corporate holiday, it has the best color scheme and it reminds us to love everyone around us. My period seems to land on or around every valday (😵) so i experience my emotions x10 every year. My girlfriend made me a book of our memories for our 3yr anniversary that happens to be valday, and it made me wanna cry. I think of our history and i can never believe that shes stayed in my life for so long and we even managed to make it to the same college. my bed is filled with care bears and her bed is filled with hello kitty and cinnamoroll, so one of the things i got her was cinnamoroll dressed as love-a-lot bear: our beds mixed together!! and then we went to target and got bratz angelz after seeing my parents and my pets (i missed my pets soooo much)(i lowkey need an esa in my dorm but i dont have a therapist </3)

 my computer also burned my skin off while playing heartopia the day before so that was making me feel like i ruined the entire day. then my thumb nail broke and it would not stop bleeding. Because of my period, this felt like the end of the world. 

Every month i am reminded of how emotional i was as a child, and how small the world felt around me. every little mess-up made me feel like there was a powerful force against me; in elementary school i convinced myself that everyone around me was an evil robot programmed with the task of bringing me down until im weak and defenseless (my mom thinks its because of my anxiety disorder). Now, i never feel like that unless i'm on my period. I always think everyone hates me when im on my period. is this normal? idk (its probably because of my anxiety disorder).

Today i am continuing my dollhouse!! it is very hard to sculpt a body. My emotions have also been overthinking my fashion show. I procrastinated too much and now i have to make two entire outfits in 2 weeks.. my fault. hopefully i have enough free time to do it😵‍💫. wish me luck!!

Happy late valday!! i hope u said i love you and kiss kiss 2 ur friends!<3 what did u do this valday?

love u all!!

 

xoxoHunter