Mom's Valentine's Scars

i can finally breath again, i felt a small tint of care, i had been worried for a while i felt so open almost as if i wasnt real, i was kept here in these four walls for as long as i can remember every passing hour felt so quick (days) ,as days went on i wondered will i ever escape this gut wrenching pain this feeling of pain as one as a whole ,that night every passing minute felt like hours of watching you suffer i couldn't bare but look away ,a knot in my throat ,does it ever get better ,i was bleary_eyed

everything happened to fast i couldn't remember the last time i saw you okay,these four walls feel like a never ending loop, tho you make it your own,as i walked in seeing you like this hurts, regardless i held back from this feeling i cant find myself to let this feeling roll down my face, i felt different every long lasting minute and hour with you felt real,  every minute felt surreal ever second felt to me like days like a never ending cycle ,in all honesty It's gut-wrenching to see how much effort every breath takes, but watching you struggle with every move breaks my heart; I wish I could carry this for you all your pain every last bit of it...