Tanks

I really enjoy  history and stuff for example the history of ww1 and ww2. Its crazy how so many millions of souls tragically died due to some old men arguing with each other. They died leaving their wives husband children family behind. Some people wish they could spend the rest of their time on this earth with their loved ones. I can feel when a loved one passes away.... like my grandparents. Although they werent the nicest... I still miss them... and seeing both of them die suddenly geuinely fucked up my brain. On top of that i saw my mother cry for the first time in a long long time which geuinely broke my head inside and not only that.... due to me being unable to think i messed up my geuine beautiful relationship with the girl who is my first ever girlfriend and my first love. O god please reunite my heart with hers. O god i pray to you please dont let me shed more tears. Each day i wait for her message like a farmer in drought waiting for rainfall. 

Sorry getting a bit carried away anyways. Due to these wars humans made killing machines just to kill one another.. imagine putting that much effort to help one-another. Tanks sparked my interest a lot cause i for some reason love them a lot. Especially world war 2 tanks. From a very long time ive always loved old things. And by old i mean how the world was before the boom of technology such as the internet. I love vintage and old buildings they had so much soul in them compared to the soulless garbage buildings we see nowadays. Such example of a crazy masterpiece is the Cologne Cathedral in Germany. Glad they didnt bomb that beauty in world war 2. 

Thats about it for now. Writing here kinda makes my heart a lot less heavy.