Gloomy Valentine's Day ❤️‍🩹

Well, if you were looking for a negative Valentine's Day experience, then you will read it right away. 

For my personal experience, I wasn't asked to be someone's Valentine or that someone has feelings for me, which is fine. There's always another chance or when the time is right, ig. I just sometimes wish that I could find someone to love me, to feel like I am their first choice, and that I can feel what love feels like. 

For my parents, well...it's another story. Apparently and ironically, it's their anniversary (they aren't married), and every year, their hate towards each other grows. Since I was young, I always knew that they never LOVED eachother. In fact, ( I may sound cringe), I never learned what a healthy relationship is like because I never saw it at home (I learned all that by my own after multiple toxic relationships lmao). My parents never taught me how love should feel, because they never got enough to show.

Today, there was fighting (something I am used to), but this time, it mostly expressed how much they hate each other by the way they described, insulted, and even dragged each other by the bus. I started tearing up while I was alone, my parents would be "happy" if they could just...separate, but both don't want to do that. I'm upset to live in an environment where love is not something you can see every day... to the point that you lose that meaning. 

At least I have some chocolates, a day off, and listening to TV Girl, this is the one I am hearing rn that ALWAYS makes me cry: 
https://youtu.be/j_sG_Juncn8

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone. 

Sat, Feb 14, 2026 
6:20 PM