im such a chud and valentines day is coming up

i've never had a real life romantic interest in my life and it makes me feel so unbelievably pathetic. but not only that but everytime i get an online situationship, im always the one who pulls back and ruin everything! i have a serious problem with love and romance, i am seriously hard to love.

something i've noticed is that i would lovebomb then immediately get too attached and obsessed, realise that i need to calm down then delude myself into thinking the person i was talking to actually doesnt even like or care about me before i proceed to ghost them. no wonder why ive never gotten a date, because i'm lowk annoying as hell! anyways just wanted to get this off my chest cuz valentines day is coming and this is my 17th year without celebrating it (with a romantic partner that is)