Hate my german teacher

I srsly hate my german teacher.

I've been trying to get myself out there/become more social but it seems like she doesn't see my efforts.

I still have horrible anxiety, somedays I wake up and I'm already freaking out, feeling like my heart is about to explode. And she knows this, shes seen me have panic attacks in her class before so it pisses me off when she gets on my ass for not talking.

We have these things called 'Chat Mats' basically its a small paper that has basic German questions on it and we're meant to ask 5 people the question on the paper. To me this is fine, I have some people that I'm comfortable talking with in that class.

But what pisses me off is that she acts fucking blind to me talking. During these 'chat mats' some people sit down and talk, and this 1 girl who sits next to me does that. I'm pretty comfortable talking with her so I walk over to her, sit down in my seat, lean over the table, point at my chat mat and start opening my mouth to speak when my bitch ass teacher literally calls me out and tells me that I need to talk as if I wasn't literally about to speak before she interrupted me!!!!

Another time, when I was finished talking to 5 people for chat mat time and sat down in my seat, she literally calls me out that tells me that I need to talk as if I didn't finish talking to 5 people!!!!!

She also keeps getting on my ass for 'being on my chromebook' even when I'm not. Somedays, I do my apush reading packet in her class and I was doing mine while I was also doing my german group project and she tells me to put it away so I put my packet on top of my binder thats on the side of my desk and I close out of the amsco. Then literally five minutes later, she calls me out to put it away again even though I'm not doing it and I just have it out on my binder!!!!

We also have a stupid ass comminuty circle where we ask a german question and a English question. I fucking hate doing this b/c unlike the chat mats where you get to talk individually, in comminuty circle you talk to the whole class and we do this shit early in the morning where my heart feels like its going to explode from jsut talking to one person.

Worse part is that she's starting to grade it so I'm literally being forced to talk. Once, I tried to skip a question but she told me that I wasn't allowed to that so I was forced to answer it and then she literally skips that question herself!!!!!!!

Last semeter, a day or two before we were going to take our speaking final she called me over and asked if I wanted to take my speaking final in private with her or with the other students using the headphones with the mic. And I tell her 'I don't care' because I don't fucking care and she's has been pissing me off this whole school year and she just stares at me like a dumbass and has the nerve to ask if I'm okay!!!! 

She doesn't even see me as a person outside this fucking class.

We had a stupid german video project to do where we talk about 1 shop, 1 resturant, and 1 hospital in our city. She shows everyones projects in class and because I turned mine in early she shows it second and after watching my stupid project she comes up to me and goes on thsi stupid ass rant about 'I was a completly different person in that video, and how when she saw me having fun and smiling she didn't recognize' blah blah blah!!!!

Hey lady! Maybe I was happy and having fun in that video BECAUSE I WASN'T IN YOUR STUPID CLASS WHILE I WAS FILMING IT!!!!!!! Maybe it's because I have a life outside this class but I guess you can't imagine that because you don't view me like an actual person all you see is a sad lil girl who needs help and not a girl who has a life outside of class that has friends and family and who doesn't need YOU in her life!!!!

She also mistook me for another girl once. That girl is literally asian, a bit taller than me and a bit chubbier than me. I'm Slavic, short, and skinny.

Hate her ass so much.