Back at school (barely holding it together)

So yeah. I went back to school today after a week.

And I’m not gonna lie, it was hard. Like actually hard.

If I’m being real, I’m going for two reasons: my one and only friend… and the fact that if I keep skipping, I’m not allowed to go see my boyfriend on Saturday.

This morning started off kinda rough. All I wanted was to stay in bed and disappear under my blankets. On top of that, my blood pressure dropped and I literally had to lie down on the bathroom floor so I wouldn’t pass out. So glam. Lol.

I showed up second period. Which already says a lot.

I feel like I’m slowly giving up. Like I’m lowkey crashing. But I can’t. I really can’t.

Because outside of school, I actually have goals. Big ones. A life I wanna build. And I can’t get there if I don’t pass this year.

So here I am. Not thriving. Not “that girl.” Just showing up. And for now, that has to be enough.