2/11/26

2/11/26

i might actually be the worst person ever. lol .  ok  hi i   was supposed to blog yesterday cuz i cant stop missing days but i didnt cuz im a lazy fuck -.- i stayed home yesterday THe pain . is killing me . bru. i didnt do anything liek at all  except some html that i stayedf up all night for .  today i had a meeting with my counselor about a  504 plan and now i am getting a bunch of accomodations for my physical health and my adhd so im very excitde about that i just need Help its so embarrassing but im  glad to finallyhave someone recognize that i need help with school =_= school was prety good i think I did no assignments because im A LAZY FUCK who has given up on doing my assignments lowkenuienly    uemmm me and bro made custard tarts with whipped cream and almonds and strawbery and it was soooo freaking good i have 3 slices of it in the fridge its actualy the best thing weve made in that class it is so good.  it was raining today! and thundering! not for very long but i was very happy about it because it never rains here ... storming even less so.i laid down to play on my phone after i got home and i fell asleep at like 6 and my parents woke me up to let me know they were home at like 7 and i accidentally fell back asleep right after and when i woke back up they were all in bed im actualy the worst person ever dude i slept through dinner and being around my family at all i need to be obliterated i fele so fucking bad. i havent done anythng productive at all no  assignments  no art that i wanted to draw  no games even im actualy the fucking worst .  urghhh nostalgia has been killing me recently ive been.. kiund of getting back into the osc but its really painfulbecause i associate so many things from the osc with my happiest moments of my life and also the worst moments becaus e i was in the osc for so  long i associate certain shows and certain episodes with certains periods of my llife and its been really painful to think about both the happy moments and the bad ones. i want to relive the worst years of my life just for the few happy moments again please i could do it right this time . i want to go back so badly fFuck fuck fuackkkk it really hurts me . its not just about object shows but thats whats been like reminding me of all that nostalgia recently. i want to go back urghhgh uughh ugghhh its hard not to cry  ive been tearful writing most of this . i think theres something seriously wrong with me but i dont have time for that. my head hurts

today is day 620 no shinjiro and 591 no makoto