Bullying ! [Part 2 - My experience]

Hello everyone! Thank you for being patient and for waiting for this part to finally come out. Bullying is a serious topic that is actually very close to me so I don't believe this is the last part, I will talk about it probably most of the time, sharing my experiences and like days. It's a good think you guys waited a couple of days because now I have couple more experiences to share aswell!

Let's start! 

So leta start with something small like cyber bullying. It was tiktok, of course, which other platform could it be? So basically on tiktok i expressed myself so much, I was a therian, gay, trans, and many more things we will not mention for my mentality lmao (jkjk but it was cringe) and many people came around saying all sorts of stuff. I was also groomed through tiktok messages wow amazing XD. I received comments like "kill yourself" , religious related shit , "what the fuck" , and mostly the usual or comments how im or my work is ugly. I didn't really care much about that since I only wasted actual tears on something that I actually felt bad about. I don't find cyber bullying that bad in my experience, someone probably would've reacted another way but for me it's pretty like. It's messed up but it doesn't affect me as much as it would someone else.

Then we have social bullying. I've basically experienced social bullying my entire life, including in kindergarten. I was mostly left out, somewhere in the corner, back of the class or just sitting alone. Kids didn't want to talk to me, play with me or interact at all. I have 1-2 friends in kindergarten but they also stopped hanging out with me after a short period of time. I still remember their faces though and I see them at school daily. Then we have my school social bullying. Typical, same thing as it was in kindergarten, nobody sat with me, talked with me, interacted or anything. I had a couple of friends but they all left me and I currently have one friend from class, who is my best friend and in general like 2-3 more friends that I randomly met. This bullying is actually very sad and it did affect me very much. It sucks to feel and know you're left out, that nobody wants to hangout with you or just like interact in general wether its homework or god knows what. From my experience, I wouldn't recommend anyone trying to interact with people who don't want to be around you since it can lead to more disappointment and sadness. This type of bullying kinda fucked me up the most.

Verbal bullying. So I will count some other things in this and this is probably gonna be the longest text so far.. This is where actual experiences come in. Starting from something basic and not that like bad. Being called stuff such as "gay" , "weirdo/freak" , "sekta {cult member in english} , "bitch" , and many more. Then we have talking behind my back, telling me that I'm a sekta, that im weird because I wear a " gay" belt and like it's mostly about the way I dress although I don't see anything bad about it. Then there's one time when a girl (the one i hate with all of my heart, soul, tears, blood, life) approached me and asked me do I have a grade in Biology and I said no. When the teacher walked in, she didn't intend to give me any grades because she didn't know I don't have one. The girl tried discreetly telling her there's kids without a grade, momentarily looking at me and I know that because I heard her and stared the same mili second the work left her mouth. The teacher gave a dude a D/C idk and then she was gonna teach us another thing. Then the girl said "{dead name} doesn't have a grade" which caused me to get a fucking C. My parents are very strict and want me to have all A's, so when I got that I immediately told my mom WHY i got a C. Then there's a time when I was chilling, as a kid, on snapchat, trying to fix others friendships when a girl from my class texted me. I didn't care much about me, we were just chilling and talking-slowly arguing when she told me to fuck my boy friend. I wasn't even a teenager, I didn't even know what that meant. . . Then there's times when they would pass notes and talking behind my back right next to me, and when I tried reaching to see they would yell at me so damn harsh, like not even my mom yells that much. I cried of course. Everytime I did something wrong they would torture me, yell at me, get mad. It was really affecting my mental health abd I felt bad for so long. There's also times when some kid that's 2 years younger than me would come up to me and provocate me and I couldn't do anything because he was younger. I sometimes get meowed on, and the other day someome told me I stink indirectly. If you ask me verbal bullying is very bad, scary, and such a mind fuck, I didn't find it easy at all dealing with this but thank God my self-confidence is slowly going up and I stopped caring so much

Physical bullying. i didn't experience much of that but I sure know and remember getting hit in the head while I was sitting on the bench in P.E. and I rarely hear an apology for that. There's this one time when I was blocking Sarah and she just forcefully grabbed my hand and squeezed it as hard as she could. That's the first time she let put her evil and true side and I'm glad that I can take it out of her. She is just pure evil. Anyway... that's all!

Thank you for reading this, waiting patiently and being so supportive! It really means so much to me! If you have any questions or want to add more just ask or say so in the comments! I apologise if this was a bit short, I'm a lot sleepy right now and if you notice typo in the text I'm so sorry, I'm writing this is half asleep state. And this whole sentence was written in half asleep state. Thank you so much again! See ya very soon:3

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-Meow !! :3