𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚'𝙨 𝙩𝙧𝙮𝙞𝙣' 𝙩𝙤 𝙬𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜.. - 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒'𝑠 𝑗𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑙

#1 - February 12, 2026

Fronting; Edward, 57yo [persecutor-protector/trauma holder/fluctuating fictive]

I hate our ex-abuser. They terrorize us even though we finally got them out of our lives.
Why do they always come back even though we work so hard to send them away?

I hate being part of a system/collective... I hate it when certain people show up again, making our system afraid once more.

It's 4 a.m., I'll leave you with an unsolicited song recommendation that I'm listening to right now:

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lunar_nessa

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You shouldn’t have to fight this hard just to feel safe. You deserve stability, respected boundaries, and the chance to not be constantly on alert. You deserve boundaries that are respected, and you deserve the chance to live without being permanently on alert.

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thanks.. i wasn't expecting this or any other comments on our blog.
and with just that comment we got back our motivation to keep writing the blog (even if it is lame.)

-joshua he/him

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𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚'𝙨 𝙩𝙧𝙮𝙞𝙣' 𝙩𝙤 𝙬𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜.. - 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒'𝑠 𝑗𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑙

#1 - February 12, 2026

I hate our ex-abuser. They terrorize us even though we finally got them out of our lives. Why do they always come back even though we work so hard to send them away?I hate being part of a system/collective... I hate it when certain people show up again, making our system afraid once more.

It's 4 a.m., I'll leave you with an unsolicited song recommendation that I'm listening to right now:

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I hate our ex-abuser. They terrorize us even though we finally got them out of our lives.
Why do they always come back even though we work so hard to send them away?

I hate being part of a system/collective... I hate it when certain people show up again, making our system afraid once more.