patchnotes 9.0.0

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 Heyy, I'm back and with a new blog layout!! Got super busy and have a lot of stuff going on since my bday and the spring semester!! so let's cut the beginning short yeah? - here's the patch notes of my life, ver 9.0.0 :)!

ⓘ advisory: adult stuff, and semi-heavy topics mentioned ⓘ

I finished KH2.5 and man what a RIDEEE, I think I'm going to write an entire seperate post for this, and probably add on 358/2 days into the post too whenever I finish that game as well. Loving my playthrough of the series real bad rn, truly a rite of passage ppl need to take(lmfao like it's a religious journey)

Holidays were nice, can't be ungrateful but barely got what I wanted for Xmas again lolll, did get my school supplies so again grateful for the bare minimum, and grateful ik how badly I need a job

Went on a cruise and the cruise wasssssss……. pretty cool(i guess)!!!!!!!

It was technically my birthday cruise, but unlike last year, where the cruise was specifically for my bday, it was more like a cruise that my bday just so happened to be on lol. It was honestly looking kinda down cause someone who I was hoping to hook up w/ completely ghosted me the day before boarding. However, it met a really cool person!! Their name is jayda, and she and I have lots in common so it was nice to have a cruise where I could talk to someone throughout the days on sea. We even did a duet for satisfied at karaoke! Another thing that was pretty good this cruise was like the late-night food on Lido LMFAO, it was like good stoner munchies food, and I'm talking like different types of stuffed mozzarella sticks every night. Really need to figure out how to make some of them xP. Oh, I got the basics of Minesweeper down too, since I downloaded an app of it on my phone, it's not super difficult; it's just a learning curve for determining the specific areas that will have a bomb in a certain numbers Grid.

My laptop blew its brains out basically, so now I'm stuck with my parents' laptop at home and taking my little brother's laptop to school until we get that shit fixed :(

(Pretty sure its the battery since I knew it needed to be replaced like 2 years prior, but praying it's not the motherboard regardless or else I need my memory off that hoe ASAP)

Sooo schools back in for about a week and I am TIRED!!! I have a half-semester psych class and we already have an exam the week in drafting this part. My other classes are the normal 12(?) weeks, but they're stacked with assignments as usually, like for example I have to do a presentation of an article for my biology class, and a multitude of "presentations"(talking to the professor for 3 minutes abt an art piece) in my art appreciation class. I also have a physical education class where we just do quizzes and turn in at least 150mins worth of activity logs every week; which I'm glad I can get back into working out, but in structuring myself to be more consistent and discipline but my word it's going to be so much on me along wih other assignments. I haven't even been able to reply to my friends since begining the semester. My parents(specifically my dad) isn't making it any better since he's essentially telling me to find a job soon or be ready to get out the moment you finish university lol. I'm not mad abt trying to find a job(I've been looking for ages), but having to do something with a doomsday clock over my head whilst having so many other things to do is rough to say the least LOL. Hoping things will look up soon, regardless, I really don't want to stay my parents' house forever, let alone be stuck at the bottom of the career ladder. I'm also taking lunches a lot more this semester so that's pretty nice :).

On another hand I made some FIRE coffee that mightttt be getting me through these first few weeks, It has a reallllly good pistachio syrup in it, and it is the bomb istgg. also started on some artwork thats supposed to be yuji and choso, which is a take on the "Two Sleeping Girls on the Stove Bench" by Anker, Albert. praying i dont get bored of working on it cause i really wanted to get the idea out of my head LOL

had to put my baby doggy Ziggy down :(

He was 13yrs old, and I loved him to death since he was technically my first ever dog that I saw over for the majority of my life. He wasn't the brightest dog, but he was my dog regardless of anything. I'm not super emotional over it yet(it takes me a while to process stuff for some reason), but I've cried 1000 times to the thought of not having him around anymore since he was around for really hard days of my major depression spouts when I was younger, and even in recent years. He was also the most annoyingly gluttonous dog I have ever met; he has stolen freshly bought donuts off my computer desk on 5 different occasions in his prime, and that's not even a fraction of other stuff he's gotten into. This dude has eaten chocolate like 30 different times, only had terrible diarrhea, but never faltered to be the healthiest dog ever, like bro???????? I swear this dude was the tarrare of the Maltese breed LMFAO(Sam O nella ref). What's crazy is that we never missed a day of feeding him, but I guess that was like one of the many quirks he had lol. He was always the cutest thing, I'm going to miss him so dearly, I truly wish he didnt have to go so soon, however he lived a very long and pleasant life, as well as given his medical issue he had at the very end of his life(rectal hernia) that had little signs of improving even on medication, it would've been so cruel to keep him here longer. Love you so much Ziggy, I'm so sorry you didn't get to live in an apartment where it was just us two, like I hoped for so long. I hope that you being in my room with me all the time at least gave you an idea of how it could've been.

Maybe next time though.

Went to collect-A-con this past Saturday, and it was cool I guess. I was able to finally buy a Kingdom Key keyblade (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑, however, I'm going to change out the chain for a real chain from Home Depot or something lol. Idk how I will replace the lucky emblem/Mickey ear charm, though, but time will tell I guess. My little brother got the Oblivion Keyblade too, and he seeminglyy close to finally caving and playing KH (he even changed his TikTok PFP to Roxas, alongside making his Roblox avatar Roxas LOL). I told him since I have the collection on Steam, he can just download it on his laptop, BUT since he has the Oblivion keyblade, I will ENSURE that fights Ansem Riku on PS3 at least ONCE!!! Ended up losing my player pin too since it was perfect for my outfit, but it was so small I didn't even notice it slip off my shoulder :(.

excuse my chopped-cheesyness here, I was so hyped up over this keyblade man LOL

Well, that was mah blog. I really like doing these, they make me realize life isn't as boring as I always think it is(thanks to mental issues probably), cause they really make me think and reflect on alot. It makes it easier to remember feelings around events in my life, too, since I have so much that will happen in a short amount of time. I'm hoping I'll be able to keep doing them, even if I get busier in the future, thanks to my parents, and the job search stuff. I've been working on fixing my resume to look way better so I can start lab work in the future, and even trying to get the chance to get on a research team at some point, so if that ever happens I want to blog every second about it. Im also really considering either deleting dating apps or changing dating goals out for fwb exclusive stuff since idk if dating if really for me(esp as an anxiously avoidant person). I say this in the context of me realizing how much more I want to get into BDSM beyond the basic stuff, and seeking out a fwb thing might just work better for me, esp considering where I am in life rn LOL. Like always, if anyone actually sticks around to read these, thanks lol, it means so much even y'all are just skimming through. 

have damnned good one!!