Venting About Flowers / Blog #4

Me and my friend are very close- They've told me numerous times that I'm their favorite person right underneath their mom. They're definitely tied if not my favorite person. We talk a lot and we're always there for each other. However, we've both been. . . lackluster when it comes to general gift giving and holidays. More recently I've been trying to be more proactive in showing my love via gifting- specifically getting things for others just because I want to and not because I want them to get me things (I can be very materialistic). 

For no particular reason I decided to have flowers delivered to him. We don't live close so I couldn't bring them myself, but that's no big deal- people have flowers delivered all the time. I even had it include a vase and a balloon. I bought it two days before I wanted it to be delivered, because I didn't want anything to go wrong y'know? The best part was I was just, so excited for him to get it. The thought of him being surprised and putting the flowers on his table and thinking of me,, made my entire day

Well of course they didn't get delivered. Just, fuck me I guess. I don't- I don't know what to say honestly. Like, what the fuck? I paid $50ish for them, and ik flowers are expensive (and that this isn't even that much for them) but like, COME ON. I hyped it up too like a fucking dunce, so now both our days are ruined. Joy.

I just feel stupid. All I wanted was to do something nice. I regret trying.