BEIN SHY

Soooo latelly i've realliced that i don't have many male friends and it's not because im a sort kindof pickme it's just terryfing for me to talk to boys, hear me out it feels so weird because i feel like im gonna be jugded for being me, and it's not i don't wanto to its just i feel weird like i don't belong and the very idea of talking to a boy it's just so overwhealming in a way of being alert if they or do not feel comfortable with what im yapping about, i would like to talk to them for just being around or hang out without being too "gay" and im not saying that i don't like being gay its just that maybe they feel weird saying things like it is okey just don't fall for me, it's like bro... I just heard you like Persona5 i wanted to talk about that with you and now i have to be aware with not saying something "GAY" you know? But idk maybe it's just a preassure in my head :/