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It's my yearly return to this website, a friend of mine reminded me it exists so I thought "why the hell not". Okay so I re do my profile, fuck around with it, not change my name because lake city quiet pills is a niche reference so I feel cool and mysterious and then...what?
What else can I do here? I don't find the enjoyment of the romanticised 2000s-2010s myspace idea in this..as much as I yearn for it.
I strongly believe short form media content has rotted an important part of my brain that wasn't meant to constantly receive the dopamine hits it does but...isn't that everyone now? The last updates I see here are 1-2 weeks ago and in all honesty it makes me a bit sad.
This is definitely a string of thought blog and what like 2 people are going to see this but whatever. I often find myself romanticizing the early internet and the level of connection I assume people to have had back then (coughs ashes up in 2007), I strongly yearn for a close community of people I can feel I belong to because I honestly feel pretty isolated in my day to day life. I have 5 close friends I hang out with + my partner, and i mean yeah that technically should be plenty and i love my time with those close to me of course I do, I cherish all of it even if I don't show it much but... a community, a group of people with the same interests you meet up with once a week in the city center or something. I got into vkei at the end of 2024 and guess how many (active) vkei fans I know in my city- ehhhh like a couple (they listen but don't indulge much further) . Sure I can get people into the music and introduce them to things but no one seems to care for it as much as I do.
It doesn't help that the alternative space in my country is insane, full of drama and just bs, but that comes in every community. I could be going to more punk shows with my friend but I'm not punk, the goth club is full of old people and I haven't really been anywhere else, and knowing myself I would be too scared to talk to anyone anyways.
point I'm trying to make is I long for a sense of community irl, not only online, fuck it barley even online I feel like I belong anywhere but that's just average teenage bullshit, most people feel like they don't belong, but I feel like I can never even force myself to conform, it just never works for me!!
Does any of this make sense?
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luke
I'm very much in the same camp. I've been on and off of here with different accounts since the site launched but I'm a lot more dedicated to being actual back here for a while at least. For me, the appeal is avoiding bots and being forced to actually think about what I'm looking at. I like to reply to people's random blog posts from the recent tab and just give my unsolicited opinion (not in a dickish way, just like prompting thought if I know what I'm talking about).
I just want the interactions to feel a little more real. I also like blogging here as a kind of diary because I feel like my written diary in my notebook can bcome a little self-indulgent in terms of allowing myself to be quite atomically miserable. I have to at least moderate my doomerism here as not to just look like all I have are complaints. It prompts me to look at the good things in my life and to pay them a little more attention.
I'm definitely finding it harder to reach people on here than I used to, though. There doesn't seem to be the same buzz about the site as there once was
NachosFans
I just come here to see original people, and not people that have formed their opinions based on instagram reels.
Niki.nikim
Yeah, makes a lot of sense actually. For me I scroll throught the blog posts, not just the popular ones but the recent ones and send a friend request if I find it interesting, a lot of it is very random but there are some really interesting posts out there. Most of the community feeling for me is from the bulletins and not the actual blog posts, the blog posts I kinda treat as an online journal that I don't mind sharing in hope that maybe someone else will find it interesting. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯