5AM

This morning, i do running like usual, i grab my earphone and set some chill song. I decided to bring some tissue in case im crying while running. But nothing happened, i dont know why i even expect myself to cry. Its just usual run that i did every morning. The sun is not up yet, outside still dark. I still can see the moon. My ears filled with the sad song. Tissue still on my grip. I get home and clean myself and go back to bed like usual. But its still strange. I feel like i wanted to cry but i cant. I dont have the reason. Im so confused. I keep thinking what is wrong with myself. Why am i like this